Miscarriage

At 17+5 weeks my membrane ruptured causing all the fluid around the baby to come out, basically my water had broke. He wouldn’t survive without it. I was in the er that night and was discharged and to follow up with my OB that Friday morning but instead I was going back to the hospital to get followed up with and the ultrasound confirmed that it was ruptured. I was then discharged and played the waiting game, which Saturday morning I started having contractions and was back in the hospital. He was already face down and in the ambulance my contractions were 3 mins apart. I was already dilated to a 10. I knew at 18 weeks he would not survive outside the womb. My son Amir Ali passed away last night 02/23/19. This was my first pregnancy and I’m beyond depressed. Why did God take my son from me after ttc for over 10 years.