So many emotions. Trigger warning

Alyssa

Everyone has a story right? Mine starts nearly 6 years ago when I met my ex husband. We were young freshly 18 and got married. We spent years going through ups and downs together. We went through some of the best and worst times together. We struggled with infertility throughout our whole marriage. I did practically everything I could do. This and many other things caused strane on our marriage. We slowly grew up and unfortunately grew apart instead of with each other. I finally hit a breaking point in October of last year. I told my then husband I needed a break. He descided he no longer wanted to work on our marriage and I let him walk away. He was angry and did many things to hurt me. He did everything in his power to break me. Luckily I am blessed with amazing friends and family who stood beside me. By January I was divorced. I found an unexpected man who was everything I ever dreamed of. I made him aware of my infertility very early on. I wanted him to know what he was getting into before things got too serious. This month I noticed I was spotting in between periods and found it strange. My best friend joked to me your not pregnant are you. After years I came to term that I simply couldn't get pregnant. A week later my curiosity finally got the best of me. I took a test. And another.. And another. I saw something I never seen before. Two lines! I am pregnant. I instantly thank God and shed some tears. I run to tell my boyfriend. I suprise my bestfriend and a few others with the news and everyone is shocked and so excited. It feel so unreal. Suddenly my heart is full and I feel the hope I once had come back. I wish this is where this story ended. Tragically this story turned to a nightmare in three days. I began to bleed and it picked up throughout the day. My stomach began to cramp and my back was on fire. I know in my heart my baby is gone. My heart aches for my boyfriend and loved ones that I choose to share the news with. I find myself getting lost in tears and thoughts of what could have been. I hate myself that I let my guard down and let myself feel happy because there is always something that is too good to be true. If you made it this far thank you. Please send me and my loved ones prayers or good thoughts. Much love to you and whatever journey you are on.