I don’t want to keep it. I can’t. I’m not mentally stable for a child or baby. And Ill resent it forever for what it’s done to me, all the pain it’s caused and how I never had a normal life. I didn’t even know if I wanted kids.

Everyone around me keeps asking every question other than if I want it. They just assume I’m happy. This has been the worst experience I’ve been through and it’s been hard to stay alive (I’m ok though).

Everyone’s so excited except for me and the father. We don’t want it. I want to let someone adopt it. But I’m scared of what my family will say, do or think.

People say I might regret adoption in the future but will I? I know that it’ll have a better life then with me. That it’ll be in a family, who can afford it, have other kids and not live off of government programs.

I’m not ready. Please don’t say “you’ll feel different when you hold it” because I won’t. I don’t like kids. They annoy me so badly. And I never wanted it.

How will I tell my mom I’m putting “her grand baby” up for adoption. Everyone says it’s your choice to keep it but it doesn’t feel like it.