I now know a miscarriage is all too common ... I wish I didn’t. I wish I didn’t know the hurt.

I should be 8w4d and my pregnancy stopped at 6w6d. I have had cramping but absolutely no bleeding. I never really got sick with this pregnancy so I was on to it knowing in the back of my mind I may not end up with a baby in my arms.

My doctor suggested a D&C to move things along and allow for healing. That or just waiting it out. No suggestion of medication to help.

I am terrified to go under. I know I will wake up. It is more the feelings of anxiety before and not feeling like myself after. It’s temporary - I get it. I don’t like feeling like I am not in control of myself. I don’t like not being able to care for myself or my family.

I also have these worries of being able to conceive again ... and why did it happen? And why can’t my body let this pregnancy go in its own?

And is this going to mess with breastfeeding my 15 month old. It already has a little bit which saddens me.

What do I expect from this? How long did it take you to heal? And when can I try again? I know I need time but knowing I can try again is giving me a glimmer of hope.