Well I never thought I’d be excited to see AF show up but today i am. The only reason I am is because my body is doing what it’s supposed to finally.

On Dec 7th my husband and I found out we were expecting again. We were so excited! This day was not only the day we found out we were expecting but one year prior, on the same day, I had a miscarriage. We spent the next three weeks in utter bliss. So excited for this new life we had finally been able to create. On Dec 24th I began bleeding. I know that bleeding during pregnancy can be normal so I tried not to freak out. We were checked out by the doc...numbers still rising, baby still in their spot. So we took a couple of deep breaths. Until the new year hit. I was being seen weekly by my OB for blood draws and US...and on Jan 14th it was confirmed. Our baby hadn’t made it. That day I schedule a D&C for one week later (I was still bleeding and was hoping my body would miscarry on its own). However, we had to complete the D&C and immediately I get different when I woke up. I could tell my body knew I was pregnant anymore and it was devastating. Once we were told that the baby wasn’t making it, my husband and I were also told that it was time to see an RE. One month to the day after our D&C we met our RE and he was great! Even though it’s awful to have to be in the position to have to see fertility - I’m for once optimistic for the next pregnancy. This doctor is even more optimistic for us and said that he will help us get pregnant and STAY pregnant.

Last night, AF showed her face. And for once I’m actually excited. My body did what it was supposed to, and in one week from today we are have a saline US completed, my husbands semen analysis, and so much more. I’m happy to have the ball rolling and maybe start getting some answers.

The point of this is, ladies I know it sucks. I know. But I also know that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. And that no matter how we become mothers, we will be someone’s momma someday.

My husband and I were about to start the foster care journey, however I found out that I was accepted into a graduate program...so we will be focusing on my schooling and fertility for the time being. But will be going back to the foster care agency eventually. Stay hopeful mommas 💕

Sorry for babbling. I just wanted to share my story so far...