It hurts so badly

I don’t have postpartum depression but looking at myself makes me sick. It hurts so much seeing these beautiful women who have babies and look great after. I was basically a c cup and now I’m an a. My breasts are so asymmetrical and have lost all firmness and perk. I eat right and I exercise. I dropped all of my pregnancy weight immediately and still I lost all of my curves.

My fiancé is constantly trying to get me to send him photos of myself but ever since he showed me a picture I sent him of me ore pregnancy I feel so horrible.

I finally got worn down today and tried to and it’s sent me into a downward spiral, sobbing, and now I want to just get wasted and go to bed.

It hurts to know genetics can prevent me from looking like these other moms. I have to stay off of this app because the second I see what I’m not it hurts me all over again. I want these moms to be confident and proud. I’m not bitter towards them. I’m just sad