Trying to cope...

Just completed my medical abortion 3 days ago. And today it’s really hitting me hard emotionally. Although I know having a child is not the smartest decision for my boyfriend and I right now. I’m still so very sad. I’ve always wanted to be a mother and still do, but all I can think about is what if I can’t have another baby... I’m just so emotional right now and needed to vent... and it doesn’t help that boyfriend just left to finish his season overseas and I just feel so alone 😞