Ladies I don’t know where to turn or what to do anymore. I’m so freaking hurt and depressed with no one to be able to talk to. I have no friends or family to be able to confide in without being put down by then too. My fiancé is becoming out of control. He is diagnosed with PTSD, manic bipolar and depression but it’s to the point that his medical diagnosis is no excuse for the way he’s treating me lately. He’s so angry all the time now, he will not take his prescribed medication, barely sleeps and the smallest thing turns into a huge ordeal. I’ve been with this man for 22 years and we were finally planning on getting married this year on 10/5/19. Well now that’s not going to happen as he’s now saying he’s leaving me. I’ve done nothing but try to help this man with true love in my heart. He used to mean the world to me and I used to to him as well. He’s now telling me that I’m ugly, I’m fat and I stink. I don’t do anything right in his eyes but yet I work 40+ hours per week, then come home to cook and clean. His psych doctor recommended for him not to work so he’s home all day every day but refuses to help me do anything. He’s always threatening to take my vehicles from me, to take my cell phone from me knowing I need a phone for work, and the list goes on. He’s even saying that I’m just like my mom which I know I’m not and I take great pride in that because my mom treated me like crap during my childhood after her and my dad divorced, and I swore to NEVER be like her towards my beautiful children. I know he says things because he’s mad but when do you draw the line??!! When do I start to feel like he’s speaking the truth??!! I just don’t know what to do anymore. I know I don’t deserve this but my self esteem has left me. How do I build the courage to leave? What do I do??? I know in my heart what to do but I have no courage to do it. Really need some form of help/reassurance/outlet. I’m just so hurt and so tired of crying everyday over a man’s behaviors that show me nothing but hatred and anger.