so ive never been the type to want kids always said id be the drunk aunt but then i got back with my child hood sweetheart and my best friend got pregnant and i just thought i want more for me and him i want a family for us we've only been trying for a couple months but its been hell i havent seen my period since the 10th December multiple negative tests so i kicked up a fuss and they did my bloods turns out i have pocs😭 its hit me so hard im also no longer immune to rubella so i have to stop ttc fir three months and i need to get my bim down to 30 before i can be referred for help but im just getting so jealous every one around me is pregnant or just had a baby dont get me wrong im happy for them but ugghhh!! i just get that gut feeling that im never going to have a little one