So I’ll start off by saying we were great friends, it went to the next level of saying I love you’s and occasionally having sex. Few months went by and we talked about having our own family one day and how it would be if I ended up pregnant now. Now let me tell you I was not on BC and he KNEW and never used a condom. We both wanted it. But we didn’t prevent it either. Well guess what? I ended up pregnant.

Here I am 6 months in, and at the beginning we talked about abortion because timing wasn’t right for him and his job. Screw that, I kept the baby. It deserves a life and we both knew what we was doing. It’s not the child’s fault. So here I am doing things on my own apparently. Which is okay I’ve got this. He told me he’s scared and not ready to be a father but will occasionally keep in contact with me. I can understand him being scared but I’m over that. I’m doing for me and the kid now. I’m tired of not having him around as a support system, although he says he cares about us both. Yeah okay. He will never ask how we are during this pregnancy. He doesn’t care to see me anymore if he really wanted to. He says he’s always busy now which is fine but I can only take so much of his bullshit excuses. If we ever meant anything to him, he’d do more to be there. So yes I feel like he doesn’t care anymore. And truth be told I don’t give a shit anymore now.

I hope one day he will realize how shitty he was and how he treated me.

What hurts the most though, is that I never thought a childhood friend would do this to me. That’s what hurts. He’s the one who has to live with it.

Btw, we are having a boy and I’m naming it after his dad 😢

He hasn’t even bought one thing for his child. Not one.