Im such a wimp....

I have been dreading this pregnancy because I don't want to do all the medical stuff. well my Dr order me to do glucose at home 4 times a day for a week because the glucose they do at the hospital makes me very sick... Soo it takes me 3 hours to work up the courage to prick myself... By hour three I'm crying because I'm so mad blaming the pregnancy and myself for being weak and a failure... As I'm crying I have the poker pressed firmly against my hand and boom I accidentally hit the button and I poked myself... A tiny little bit of blood comes out and I take my blood sugar... I didn't even feel anything... I'm such a wimp.