We all wish to have a great pregnancy but sometimes, life happens.

Today has been one of those really awful days. I admit I felt so bad I didn't want to live. But then I thought this baby, I can't harm.

My pregnancy has been great physically, but emotionally it has been a rollercoaster. Everything has fallen apart. Everything! Starting from my job, have no where to stay, etc etc. I feel like I don't know how I will take care of this child and for just one second, i thought if I give birth, it will be too late, I would have brought this baby into such a mess. I really wanted to die. But worst thing about death is we are naturally created to have a survival instinct so there is little guarantee it would work. What a loss it would be if it didn't work n I just ended up harming the baby. Anyway. Am calmer now but am amazed how many mother's go through so much and still make it. I hope my ray of hope comes sooner than later. I really respect all you moms keeping your act together despite everything going on. I know it is taking all my strength to make it through each day. It ain't easy, but it is worth it.