I'm not ready.

I am laying in bed realizing I am going to be 38 weeks pregnant this sunday. Reality just hit me, my baby is going to be here soon. (Induction at 39 weeks exactly)

I have spent the last 9 months being pregnant and wishing it was over, struggling sick, very complicated pregnancy.

Today I have had so much period like cramping, pressure, and feeling sick and off.

As I lay in bed, with braxton hick contractions coming and going... I don't think I am as ready as I thought I was.

I am so scared to meet her, scared of labor... I have been so confident about labor and everything else and now I am just laying here tearing up hoping I don't go into labor anymore, I am scared. I don't think I am ready to meet the little one I have been cooking for the last 9 months. 😥😓