My cultural background doesn't necessarily "believe" in depression, or any mental illnesses really; basically, in my culture its looked down upon and people just think that it's all made up for people with depression.

Anyways, I've been really eager to get the help that I need from a health provider, about my depression.

If I'm being honest, I've pushed off my online school completely, pushed off my interests and hobbies, lost pretty much all of my friends, and just got swallowed in all of my emotions completely. My parents tell me that I'm just not trying hard enough in life, and I know I'm putting myself through all of this because I'm not motivating myself enough, but it's just really hard....... I dont even know how to explain how I feel or why I feel the way I do. It's been hard pushing myself, especially considering I'm a teen mom with a recently turned two year old. I want to do better for the baby and me, but I somehow feel like I can't for some reason, like something's holding me back.

Honestly, I wrote this post to just get some feedback about how to deal with all of my stuff. How do I even begin to tell my parents about being depressed? I've already disappointed them before with being a teen mom, how can I burden them with more of my crap? :/