Bare with me....

I’ve never felt this way before. I have good history with this guy. We were never official but did chat online for long distance and seen eachother when I was home or when he was in the county I worked in. He sang, was funny and I honestly can’t remember a time where I didn’t have the most fun I’ve ever had when I’ve been with him. He’s just that person who instantly puts everyone in a good mood. Things happened, I got a boyfriend who I broke up with 6 months ago because I wasn’t feeling it.

Now he has a girlfriend just as I was thinking of getting back in touch with him in the hope we could spend more time together. I really like this guy and for some reason my mind is always drawn back to him. Soppy I know!!

Obviously now I can’t do anything because he has a girl. He has no idea of my feelings. He still sends a Snapchat here and there and always replies to any general snaps(that id send to a few people) that I send.

I’m lying in bed now realizing that every time I think about him now and our history together I feel physically sick. Like I don’t want to put away my phone and try to sleep because I get even more upset in the quiet.

I know this sounds so so dramatic and obsessive but it’s the only way I can explain!!

I’m leaving the country in 6 months and this will help but I don’t know how to help myself before then. I think I truly loved/still love this guy.

Any tips girls??? Or share your story with me so I don’t feel so alone 😫

(Sorry for the really long and soppy cringe post)