I wish it was my turn.

I'm sure everyone is sick of posts complaining. But I really wish my husband was ready to ttc. I have pcos and am terrified I can't have a baby. My doctor already told me I'll probably have a hard time. I have this longing inside of me. My chest hurts whenever I think about it. Which is honestly most days, for most of the day. I can't keep talking to my friends about it, how annoying to have someone complain constantly. Especially when they're cuddling their babies already.

Everytime I get a cramp or twinge, I calculate and see if I could possibly take a test. With pcos I'm not regular anyways so I figure why not. Then its stark white and my chest aches all over again.

I just wish it was my turn.