my boobs :/

okay so i have pretty big boobs and im in highschool. guys really seem to like them but i don't.. im just really insecure of them. i just don't find boobs attractive 🤷🏽‍♀️ but nobody seems to understand why. i've been fingered before and i didn't really think much about a guy touching my vagina but as we were making out he tired putting his hand in my bra and i totally freaked out!! i get really uncomfortable when people stare at my boobs, it makes me mad. when i lose my virginity i plan to keep my shirt on. is anyone else like this? cause most people are jealous of my boobs, when i am completely annoyed by them.