He was the love of my life...

My light at the end of the tunnel. My endgame. My future husband. He chased me for 2 1/2 years before I finally gave in. He told me in the beginning, “I’m going to make you fall in love with me, Ginger. You just wait and see.” And he did. He made me fall absolutely, head over heels, irretrievably in love with him. Every time I looked at him my heart fluttered and I’d get this big dumb smile on my face. My favorite spot was on his chest, playing with his hairs and feeling so content and safe and loved. He treated me like a princess. He sent me flowers from over 3,000 miles away while he was in Europe for two weeks. He’d always call me “gorgeous” and “beautiful” and tell me I was his forever. We’d planned out most of our wedding already, and a vacation this summer with the kids.

And then he said his feelings changed.. that his heart wasn’t in it anymore. And even though I was a great person, and brought out great qualities on him, it wasn’t worth it if it was just a waste of time for both of us.

He dumped me. Out of nowhere. Through a text message.

I’m shattered.. I can’t breathe. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and squeezed til it burst, by his hand. He made me fall in love with him and then he took it away.

I’ve been blindsided, just like everyone else. His mom and sisters are shocked. Shocked isn’t the word I have for myself. Stunned. Numb. I don’t even know what to think.