I’m scared to have sex 😬

I mean, it’s more awkward for me to feel pain during sex compared to being naked 😂

I am really scared that I’ll feel so much pain I’ll cry, or ask it to stop or scream awkwardly or something along those lines.

When I masturbate I use only one finger, more than that is painful and uncomfortable to me.

I really don’t know what to do. When that time comes It will be so awkward. I really don’t want to meet boys so that I don’t get into a relationship and then in such an uncomfortable situation.

What do I do??

Ps. I’m 17 years old going to 18 in a couple of months and really petite. Never had a relationship or a boyfriend.