Broken, Betrayed, and Murdered..

I wake up one night at 2:15am,

I go to the computer and find out you cheated on me and enjoyed it. From the first word I was broken, by the eighth word I was betrayed, and by the last one I was murdered. That was the first time you murdered me.

A few months go by and things seem like they are going back to normal. Things are calm and quite. We seem happy. I thought we were happy. But then May, June, and July come. We seem happy but we are not. I feel like I’m doing everything wrong, feeling like I’m just a bother to you now, like you don’t love me anymore.

You’re distant,

You’re cold.

We are together but you’re not there emotionally. You’re gone.

I leave to go back home and you seem relieved. I didn’t understand then but I do now.

I left and they show up. Making your life better and lighter than I could..

They brought you a night full of magic and fun, I obviously failed to deliver.

Deliver what you craved.

With every word, you broke me, with every kiss, you betrayed me, with every touch you murdered me. That was the second time you murdered me.

I wasn’t aware of your unhappiness because you hid it oh so well. Like a lawyer, you hid the truth. Hid your unhappiness.

December come around. The weather turning cold, just like your actions.

I am feeling mixed motions. But they are not my mixed emotions; they’re yours. You know I feel emotions of another person, but you have forgotten just how sensitive this gift is. You didn’t realize how I can read an emotion just over a phrase of wording. I knew something was wrong but I couldn’t place my finger on it. I know you lied but I couldn’t prove it. So I wait.

You come home. Things seem normal.

You seem happy.

You seem complete.

We seem like we have never had an argument or misunderstanding.

We seem perfect.

But then February came. You left your phone with me. That was when I seen everything. Found everything. Every lie, every mistake, every skeleton that was hidden away in your neatly kept closet.

With every word, you broke me. With every touch, you betrayed me. With every lie, you murdered me.

That was the third and last time you murdered me...