Can’t help but be jealous

I’ve got to get it out..

I’m 24.. good career.. amazing long term boyfriend.

End of last year I found out I was pregnant.. accidental. We both decided ( me scared I was going to loose him so went with it) that it wasn’t the right time so I got an abortion.

I’ve just found out my next door neighbor ( she’s lovely) is expecting and I’m so envious, hurt, upset.

I know it’s horrible to say but I was jealous because she gets to be excited and I couldn’t

I know the right time will come for us but I can’t help but get upset.

Wish it was me