Maybe I’m bi? 🏳️‍🌈

Hey guys I’m just looking for some advice! Recently, I’ve been totally questioning my sexuality.

Which is pretty scary! I have always considered myself pretty straight, but I had an experience that made me think otherwise. Let me set the stage:

I’m in a musical at my school right now. I’ve been involved in theatre my whole life. I have this friend, let’s call her Sam, who I’ve been friends with for four years. I was Wendy and she was Peter in our 8th grade musical.

But anyway, she had been super flirty with me all week leading up to this lock-in we do. At my school, we have a lock-in with the cast where everyone stays overnight together at the school and does fun stuff. I love it. But, around midnight when the lights were out, she texted me.

Here’s the thing, I have felt attracted to her for a while but I was never sure if it was real. Ladies, I’m gonna tell you right now, I still don’t really know. But anyway, she texts me:

u up? ;)

Which was hilarious. We texted for a little bit about the week and what she’d been doing and then, like an idiot, I make a move. I say:

This would be a lot easier in person.

And Sam says:

Come here then.

See, she’s in an isolated practice room in our choir class so there’s no one in there. And yet, I go.

So, when I get in there, she just chilling in her pajamas by the light of her phone on a blanket. We hang out and talk for like thirty minutes but then things get interesting. She gets up to go check something out the door so, I scoot back to where she was sitting. I thought she would sit in my old spot but nope, she sits directly behind me.

I know if I turn around, she’s going to kiss me.

Now I’ve kissed people. I’ve just never kissed a girl and not one of my closest friends. I know for a fact she’s only had one kiss, and it was nothing memorable. But, of course, I turn around. Her eyes, guys, I love her eyes. They’re so powerful. So I’m hit with those dark eyes and I say, “oh sorry” because I’m face to face with her. So I scooted back but... she grabs my legs and kisses me.

She’s definitely the best kisser I’ve kissed before. But I pull back and I say, “But, you’re Peter Pan!”

But it’s ok because she thought it was cute. Sooooo yeah, wow sorry this was a long post. But basically, now I don’t know what I’m feeling. We kissed more that night and stayed up until like 2 am.

I’m not sure if a relationship would be a good next step for us because we’re so different in personality. But, I think we could be great. I’m not sure! All I know is, I don’t think I’m straight!