Please don’t drag me...

So last summer I’ve done some untasteful deeds while I was still with my boyfriend with another guy. Ive already admitted to cheating but right now I can’t stop overthinking and worry that I found out I was pregnant in July 2018 and I’ve gone back in texts and there is no way I slept with the other guy other than my boyfriend in June, he always pulled out and obviously I don’t have the greatest sex education. I’m confident that my baby’s dad is my boyfriend because he has only been the one to come inside me and I don’t know how long it take for sperm to travel and fertilize whatever. but I’m scared to even bring up there’s a bit of a shadow of the doubt that there’s that 1% it won’t be his. I hate that doubt is just flooding my mind a few weeks before I give birth.

A part of me just wants to die because we’ve been moving on. We’re trying to grow up and heal and we’ve been okay.

I really want this baby and I really want my boyfriend. We’ve been together for almost 10 years now but I made such a f-ing stupid decision last year I don’t want to lose this if I would even try to talk about it with him. I am just scared. So scared I don’t even want to give birth to this baby... 😢