emotional wreck

a year ago today I found out I was expecting my first child that suddenly ended a month later as an ectopic pregnancy, yes I’m an emotional wreck right now b/c my SO told me he wanted to try to have a baby this month but we only had sex twice my ovulation week and it was only 2 mins both times😩! If AF doesn’t show this month I’ll be the HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE! I’ve been trying to have a baby since then it has been what 11 months now, sometimes I think will I ever get pregnant again, from the late periods to the weird periods I just don’t know