Crushes literally crush me

So I like this guy (obviously I mean read the title) and we are good friends but that’s the thing I think we are just friends and it’ll always be this way but I don’t want it to just be that.

My two besties think we are a thing or that I like him and I constantly tell them no cause if I tell them that I like him they’ll do something and it’ll scare him away (it’s happened before) so I tell them no.

We text and everything and he’s my number one best friend and we talk about everything.

Now idk if it’s just me but I make little scenarios in my head about us and this Saturday there’s a gatho and I made a scenario that we kiss and I know it won’t happen which crushes me

So yeah that a crush that crushes me !