Ugh 😑

So I kinda feel bad ! I’m supposed to start my period today - nothing so far and I want a baby so bad . Me and my man talked and he feels we should wait . He has two I have two . There mother passed away so I’m raising them ... so for whatever reason he feels we need to wait like another year . We only use pull out method which he’s very good at 🙄 so is it horrible that I pray I “accidentally “ get pregnant ?

I’m literally praying my period isn’t starting because we made a oopsie! Now I was on antibiotics 2 weeks ago so I already know that’s why it’s late 🙄 but the eager of it is killing me 😭