To the best friend I lost because I chose to walk away. The one who wasn’t good for me, my relationship, my life. The one who belittled me. The one who could get me to do anything for her. I hate that I feel as if I will always have love for you. I hate that I haven’t been able to move on from you. How the fuck do I move on? IT’s BREAKING MY HEART.

To my childhood best friend. I love you more than anyone. I have ALWAYS prioritised you In my life, even when I first got with my boyfriend. Not the case now, I still have an enormous love for you. We are so connected. I love you I love you I love you I’ve never had anyone like you. But you don’t prioritise me in anyway. It’s your boyfriend, drugs, sleep. I miss you. I need you.

Dear fucking life. WHY do I struggle so much to find someone I can click with. I need someone who I am important to!!! I AM BREAKING. I Can love someone so much. I just need someone to need me! I have a boyfriend, MY own house and a son! But I am still, so, fucking, lonely! It is destroying me.