I felt my heart split in two 💔

So October last year my partner said let’s try for a baby and I was over the moon the only thing I’ve ever wanted to do in life is become a mummy and last night he tells me I think we should stop trying cause it’s not working and I had to just hold back the tears and pretend I was ok with it but I’m really not my heart sunk and still feels the same now I just feel sick with emotion we have told family an close friends we’re trying and I can’t even bring myself to say the words to tell them it’s not going to happen my great nanny who is 99 and very porly was so excited to know as I’m the oldest grandchild and I feel like I’m letting everyone down 😥😥😥💔