My son just turned to months old. When he was born I didn't get the baby blues and I was gone his first three weeks. At three weeks I had to stop breastfeeding because he want gaining enough weight but that's also when postpartum hit me. Everyday is getting worse and worse. I can't stand any sounds he makes, I don't have a bond with him anymore, and I get so angry. It's not just with him, anything and anyone can set me off. My relationship is pretty much ruined because of it. My PCP knows I'm struggling and suggested therapy but that's not going to work out for me, I still haven't even had my 6 week check up and won't until he's 11.5 weeks old. I've hurt myself many times out of anger, same with boyfriend, but not my son. I've been saying I need help for a while but he's always at work and he's my only support system. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm struggling to keep my cool.