Pregnant and depressed

I’m a good month pregnant and I just found out. Me and my boyfriend have been trying for 8 months now. But when I took a test he brought a 16 pack of beer over and got super drunk. He kept saying “fuck” and “ I didn’t think I could have kids”. We’ve talked about all of this and it was FORSURE planned. I have no idea why he reacted like this but it only made me feel insanely bad. I ran out of the room and ofc he tried to tell me that’s not how it meant it. That part isn’t even a big deal. He’s staying with his friend who he knows I hate him staying with, and he hasn’t been there in forever because he knows it bothers me. But he’s there tonight, drunk. He didn’t even tell me he was going or was there, nothing. Then when I saw his location and said something about it, he said “I knew you’d see it”. He throws the biggest fits anytime I do anything, but now he can and doesn’t even tell me? I feel like I’m being walked on completely, kind of just because “I’m knocked up”. He turned something I wanted into something I don’t, and I don’t know what to do. I could never do anything like abortion or anything. He does things that he knows bothers me and then when I’m upset constantly tells me how I don’t need to be stressed and how bad it is on his kid. He used to have a drinking problem but when I got with him I made him quit. I asked him why he has to drink and how not normal that is and he told me that he’ll never be able to after this so he has to now. He’s not supporting me emotionally at all, and it’s a lot on me right now. I definitely can’t deal with this all by myself but idk what to do.