I was raped last year and i didnt report it he is off in the army now .. but I am finding myself having panic attacks when I think about it or when I see a particular jamba juice employee that looks similar to my rapist. I dont have the ability to seek professional help and my mental health seems to keep declining I was in shock for a few months after and am not 'reacting' until the last couple of months (6) and I dont know what to call the episodes or "spells" I'm having, they happen anytime anywhere almost any reason and I'm fed up of looking behind my back in tears speed walking home knowing that my attacker is no where near. I feel so stupid feeling so scared and having bad dreams. Reliving it is the worst and makes me hate myself

How do you cope/ forgive/ calm down/ not live as a victim