I’m 18 going on 19 and sometimes it gets very hard to keep myself. You’d think it’s not hard to have self control, but with so many opportunities it is. I know people say if he doesn’t want to be with you cause you won’t have sex then he doesn’t deserve you. But that doesn’t make me feel any better. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me, but sometimes I just want to say f it because what if this is the person I’m supposed to be with? I probably still won’t have sex because I have a fear of getting pregnant or catching diseases, but I’m just saying to people who say it should be easy because I’ve never had it that’s not true. I’m not sure if I need advice, but I wanted to just unload some of my stress.

Also I bought lingerie for my self even though I’ll be the only person to see it.