Incredibly lonely (vent)

(Vent): So my husband and I have been married 2 years. We didn't date long before getting married and in fact I never wanted to be married again after my prior marriage. After I got pregnant by him I finally agreed to marriage and gave him my everything. However that's when he turned into a monster. For 2 years straight, he was more or less a disaster and I regretted every moment from the day I said, "I do". Problem is that while I love him, I'm not in love with him. He's supposed to be my best friend, my confidant, but he's not. Now that he's finally turning his life around and being a husband for once, I find that I'm just not happy. I'm bitter and angry. We've recently started marriage counseling and I could care less where it goes. I feel alone with him. Matter of fact, even though we've been married for 2 years I'm alone more than I've ever been in my life. I barely saw him for 2 years. Now I see him all the time but I still feel so damn lonely. He has no idea how to love me and while he thinks he knows me, he doesn't because if he did he'd know I feel alone.