Emotions make sex better

So we have been in a sub/dom relationship for a year. He calls me his little girl because I’m really tight, and pounds me real hard until I hurt. I love the pain.

For our 1 year anniversary I opened up to him about my past and my feelings, discussing things the most far away from sex, like family, education, who I really am and with which culture I identify. Why we didn’t do this before is because I have no self esteem (and trust issues on top of that) so I thought if I opened up to him he’d be mean to me (since our sub/dom relationship stretches wayyy outside the bedroom).

Well guess what? Me opening up and telling him about literally everything in my life gave our relationship such a boost! He said he’s never loved me more, and I get so excited to talk to him I shiver at the thought of it, and when he calls me, I start jumping around the room. I really feel like a child now.

We won’t be seeing each other for another week, but when I ask him what he will do to me, he tells me how he wants to break me and use me, both physically and emotionally. And honestly it gets me so turned on, because after I opened up he’s been nothing but supportive.

It made me realize that he cares so much, he might be violent in the act, but he will never skip aftercare <3

P.s.: I love being manipulated. Both mind and body. Being told not to touch myself while he’s away is so hard and it turns me on so much oh my god he is perfect