It’s 4.20am. Yesterday I walked then went swimming with my man and my boys.

I spent all day with back ache, lightning crotch and general pain and discomfort. During swimming and after I had some painful but not excruciating contractions (from google more like prodromal than BH), and for the rest of the evening crampy backache. I had two naps and still exhausted.

Spent couple hours on the birth ball and running upstairs for a wee every couple minutes. Still lightning crotch and super bladder pressure. Every time almost not managing to close the door and get undressed before I pee a tiny bit each time. Eventually went to bed just to lay down. Finally got to sleep.

2am I wake up to pee and literally run to the toilet and pull my pants down and before I can turn and sit a big gush goes everywhere. All over my undies and the floor. Floor is dark grey so can’t see what it looks like. Try for wee and clear up the mess. I’m pretty sure I peed myself. With my previous two (7&8 years ago) my waters broke during/before contractions in a small gush then more would trickle each contraction.

I go back to bed with a maternity pad and have some painful contractions but not regular or close. I keep noticing liquid trickling and then a contraction happens. I cough and liquid comes out. Twice. Back to the toilet and my pad is clearly wet. It’s yellowishorange - not really wee colour, not really blood tinged. I can’t smell anything but I have a cold so idk if my nose is reliable!!

I’m back in bed after pooping and less liquid seems to be coming out but I still can’t tell if it’s baby squeezing out every bit of pee I make or if it’s slow waters.

I’m 39 weeks - having a home birth in the uk so not going to hospital when things start anyway. I also had false labour for 12 hours at 36 weeks (went hospital bc was early) and all fizzled out. I’m so confused!

With my two boys I had obv contractions and water breaking put me in active labour. With my first I had mild conts all day, water broke 6pm active labour started and born by ten. With my second my water broke two hours after stretch and sweep before contractions. This time third trimester has been so different and so many false alarms when I never had any before.

I’m so desperate for this to be the start cus this pregnancy is a real struggle physically compared to before but both my boys were late and I’m only 39+1 now :(

Idk how to cope with this prodromal / false alarms all the time. Partner wants to help but can’t do much. I’m so fed up! Don’t even get stretch and sweep til midwife clinic Thursday. :(