So ladies my story is a long one and like many others here has lots of heartaches. In September of 2016 I gave birth to my first child, Morgan, who was born sleeping at 36 weeks due to a cord knot. My husband and I were devastated. In the following 2 years I got pregnant and miscarried 4 times. Each loss cut me to the core and made me feel like my body just couldnt carry out this miraculous task that women should be able to do. So we decided to take a break for a little.

Then in Sept of 2018 a week before my sons angelversary we found out we were expecting again. Of course the fear took over again but this pregnancy has been mostly uneventful. Like my first my doctor has considered this a textbook pregnancy up until this point. I had originally been asking to see how early I could be induced since now that I am 35 weeks +3 days pregnant my anxiety and fears are overwhelming. I was first told by my doctor that he cant until 39 weeks. I wont lie, I started to tear up and told my doctor that it felt so far away and I wasnt sure if I could manage that. I should mention this is a new doctor than the one who was with me with my first (thanks insurance switch 🙄). His response to me was that I shouldnt be worried because this has been a "textbook" pregnancy. I responded with "so was my first". I think it finally hit him then that I knew, really knew, that everything could be perfect and something can still go wrong.

He promised to talk to his head obgyn and see if they could go any earlier that 39 weeks. Well about a half hour after I had left his office he called and told me the head doctor said I could be induced at 37 weeks. Ladies I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders. I know most believe that we should let the babies come on thier own time but I felt the added stress of my worry for an extra month would be worse for baby than a possible day or 2 in the NICU. I go in on April 11th for one last NST and to schedule my induction. While I feel a huge weight has been lifted I still feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Send me all the positive vibes you can to help my get they the next 2 weeks.