So over with this pumping ordeal

It’s soooo time consuming. My breast are constantly leaking, they hurt. I get mad when I have to pump, AGAIN. Waking up with my shirts SOAKED IN MILK. I’ve secretly been researching what can dry up my supply cause this is a mental trigger for my temper to be release. I get so upset and mad. I have so many things that I have to do at home and a demanding baby that pumping for 40 minutes makes me so upset.