Problems with recovery

So, I’ve been self harming for about 2 years and have been clean since Christmas. Almost relapsed a week ago but I held my shit together.

One thing I honestly cannot stand is when I show the very few people that I trust (mom, best friend, therapist) my scars, and they say “oh, they aren’t that bad”

Not even joking, this was all 3 of their responses. Like are you kidding me? First, the ones I showed are like a year old and are fading, finally. Second, who the hell are they to tell me that my self harm isn’t bad enough?! You know what the first thought was? It was “how can I make it worse?”

It’s so terrible that to make people understand how bad a mental illness is, you have to have deep, long slashes across every inch of your body.

I’m really angry about this.

Sorry but I had to get it out.