C section issues

So I feel like with my first c section I started to heal a lot faster but it could be because it was 4 years ago and I just don’t remember 😫 it’s been 17 days now and my incision is still so super sore. The only pants I can wear are my husbands sweatpants because the band is so loose around me. It’s so frustrating to not be able to wear my own clothes comfortably when I have to go out of the house. The far left side of my incision is bleeding just a little and it’s burning so I’m so terrified it’s gonna get infected. And not to mention I stopped bleeding about 6 days ago and now it’s like niagra falls again and I fucking HATE these pads with a passion I feel dirty and shitty and I just want my body to feel some kind of normal again 😭