Hard feelings towards OBGYN

I didn’t have the delivery I expected/wanted. I feel like I was in the dark for the most part until the “Hey we have to do a csection” part. I seriously don’t know why I am so resentful to my doctor and his staff. (Just for reference, I decided a while back that I won’t be using him ever again if I am to have another child—I want someone that will be a lot more attentive to my needs) it’s been 3 weeks since my child’s birth and I am still in the feels when I think of how bad my delivery was.