Stupid hair

When I was younger my hair was so curly that I refused to brush it because it made me cry every time. (Not related but my mother called me rats nest and it's stuck with me all my life.)

As I got older she refused to let me cut it, so by the time I turned 18 it was down to my ass and wavy because the weight stretched it out.

Stupid me thought that if I cut my hair it would curl again and look pretty. It didn't. It stayed wavy and I regretted cutting it. So then stupid me again, decides to bleach and dye it so I'd at least have a pretty color. Now the color has faded and Its an ugly blonde, with my natural color coming back.

But the problem is tht it's short and ugly and it's no longer wavy or curly. It's a giant fucking poofy fuzz ball on top of my head. I hate it.

I've tried using oils to help it curl and it does nothing but make my hair oily.

I pretty much have to straighten it every couple of days, and within a few hours its not even straight anymore, just wavy.

I want my natural hair back 😭

I want it to curl and not just be a wavy poof all the time.

But idk what to do, I've tried a lot and nothing helps. I'm also not the type to put much effort into my looks so I don't want to have to spend forever each day fixing it just to look decent for a couple hours and then look like hell again.

What can I do? Cause I almost want to cut it all off again out of annoyance, but I really miss my long hair even though it wasnt curly and cute like when I was a kid.