My husband and I started romanticizing the idea of having a baby a few months ago... then I started to think about it, REALLY think about it... sometimes I felt overwhelming joy, other times I felt completely terrified and far too young (going on 26 y/o and 2 yrs married) and honestly, not financially, mentally, or emotionally prepared enough. I have severe anxiety that I treat with cannabis. I have been for over 3 years and it has made me exponentially happier. I have been prescribed with medications that numb and others for panic attacks, but haven’t needed them unless in extreme situations, nor do I care for their effects. I work for a dispensary in a legal state. I help people on a daily basis with cannabis. A few days ago I found out I’m pregnant. Just days before I was talking about how wonderful a baby would be, now I am devastated. Obviously my anxiety has sky rocketed... my husband was happy at first, I was too. Now we are considering abortion. All I can think is how I wish we never put ourselves in this situation... I’m not whole enough for another human, a baby, to depend on me... so if we abort, I will forever wonder about the child that could have been our first born that we made out of love and joy... or we could have the baby and forget all of our big dreams... because we would never be able to put ourselves above our children, not in any way. Either way, I feel devastated... how can we possibly make this decision?