Today I made my first fertility appointment. It’s next Tuesday.

I’m anxious for it to come and start making a plan.

My emotions are so mixed tonight. Im thankful for the resources and I’m feeling so confident that they will be able to help; however, I also never thought we would be here.

I’ve always been told, “if you have sex, you will get pregnant”. Period, end of story. There was no wiggle room in the statement! This last 12 months of trying has proven, beyond doubt, that this isn’t the case. I’ve wondered what’s wrong with me. What’s wrong with my husband. It’s been so difficult questioning everything! I’ve felt alone. I’ve felt sad and mad at myself. I’ve been scared. I’ve felt scared. And most of all I’ve felt broken.

And watching my friends and coworkers announce pregnancy. Again so many mixed emotions. It seemed that for them they got the miracle I’ve been waiting for.

Even after all of this trying I’m still holding out hope. I have faith that my baby is coming, I will get to make my husband a father, and I will be a mother. I know it will happen.

I’m so thankful for this group. Just reading your posts has made me realize first and foremost I’m not broken. And second I’m not alone.

Thank you to all you beautiful ladies who are sharing your stories here. As I start this next leg of the journey to my beautiful child, I can’t tell you how helpful it is to have you by my side and on my side. I’m blessed to have each of you in my life. ❤️

Baby dust, continued love, all my support and may we all feel safe enough to share our stories on this journey.