Did I really deserve this?

So let me give y’all some background to this. My ex and I are trying to work things out and get back together maybe. A few months ago he dated a hoe(lets be honest) who ghosted him and led him on the entire time. Other than that there’s not much else and the whole not trusting me thing is because he has a lot of issues like depression and he goes through episodes of not knowing who he can trust and stuff like that so that’s why he said that. But did I really deserve how he’s talking to me? I get that I shouldn’t have said that but I wasn’t trying to be rude or any type of way to him oh and he’s staying 8 hours away from where I am. And no, I’d never sleep with another guy even if we aren’t technically together, we’re still trying to work things out and I would never do that to him.