Just sayin’

Idk if it’s because it’s Easter weekend and we have family getting together, but I just really miss my baby girl. I had a mmc and D&C at 15 weeks in January, and been ttc since. Anyway, I really miss her today. I should be super pregnant right now, I should be excitedly getting ready for her birth in July. I shouldn’t be grieving the loss of a child. It’s complete bullshit and idk if my heart will ever really heal. I have a 2.5 year old little boy who is amazing and such a blessing, and I feel selfish for grieving my second baby when I have one healthy babe and I know others do not. I’m not lost on that and really try to focus on being grateful for what I have. But it still hurts so much. I go through each day fine for the most part, and then I have these moments that completely overwhelm me with sadness and grief. It hits so hard and unexpectedly.

I miss my little girl 💕👼🏻