I’m due with my second on April 30th and with my son I got induced at 40 weeks so I never went into labor or even dilated or effaced prior so I have no idea how it feels to be close to real labor. I’m 38+5 today and just absolutely miserable and I feel like I’m being the devil to everyone. I have no patience. I feel like everyone is rushing me to do things and I am wanting to just ease into everything. For example, my son opened his Easter basket this morning and then my in laws kept texting us and bothering us about FaceTiming them right away to open his Easter basket from them. They’re 2000 miles away so they mailed his over. No problem but I wanted him to open his first and see everything. He wasn’t even all the way through his basket before my husband tells me let’s FaceTime my mom now. I snapped because I’m in the middle of opening eggs for him he’s only 23 months and can’t open the plastic eggs yet. I hadn’t even had breakfast. I felt like the second we came downstairs everything moved a hundred miles a minute. I felt so overwhelmed because we had our dog to feed and take outside, our son to help with his basket, and my in laws were just in a hurry to want him to open their basket. I just needed 15 minutes to get situated. I don’t feel like that was unreasonable.

Anyhow, after all of that my son was crying of course because I only let him have a few pieces of candy because it was only 8 am. He hasn’t had breakfast yet. His crying sent me over the edge and I couldn’t even concentrate. Not to mention I have terrible back and pelvic pain, sciatic nerve pain. My stomach is so cramped it feels like my muscles are ripping apart. Normal 38 week symptoms you know. But I just cant handle everything going on at the moment. I feel like this baby is draining the life out of me and if I had her I’d feel 10x better because I wouldn’t be in pain or miserable. I’d rather be tired and have leaky sore breasts at this point. Is it maybe a surge in hormones or what? With my son I never felt this way at 38-40 weeks and I actually worked full time until my due date. Now I’m a SAHM so I feel like I should be able to handle things like this but my patience has just diminished and I’m scared of how much worse it can get. I’ve snapped on my husband so many times this week over nothing. Everything he’s doing is annoying me, my dog is even annoying me. Someone tell me I’m not going crazy. I know I’m only due in 9 days but my doctor will not induce until 41-42 weeks so this could very well be a 3 week thing for me and I’m worried it’ll continuously get worse. I’ve already broken down and cried today over nothing.