Yesterday 4/20, I went to the theaters then left. As I was leaving the movie theater parking lot, I saw a truck. A truck that looked exactly like my old loml. Or so I thought he was, I saw the truck. Saw a guy and it looked like a girl inside, and my stomach literally dropped. I was high, my high was ruined, and all I could think about is him with another girl. He didn’t treat me good, but he knew what to say to me and how to please me. he didn’t only give me love, but lust. Lust takes over you like a spell. 5 years of lust and love, it’s hard to let go. He’s done me dirty so many times, and I somehow go back to him. There’s just something about him, and I seriously don’t know why I can’t get over him. It really sucks and I can’t stop thinking about it. I deleted him off snap and we never text anymore so I guess that’s step 1.