Anyone else dislike men very much and can’t help it? *trigger warning

I’m still sexually attracted to them (unfortunate really) but I feel uneasy around them all. It’s a hard emotion to explain really. Could be a sales man or literally any man I come across I feel that way. I’ve been abused in every way possible by every single man I ever let into my life. And men I didn’t let into my life, I’ve been raped before too. I’ve been with a lot of men throughout my life in relationships with them ranging from successful college graduates from good homes to seemingly good men from other countries to men who grew up on the streets. Many different types. My dad is the only man I can respect. If there is a guy who tries to talk to me anywhere in public I don’t make eye contact and barely respond or don’t respond at all. I don’t feel afraid I just don’t trust them. If I do interact friendly with a man I feel like I’m being fake to them. Sex is always emotion-less. Any just male friends I’ve had have sexually assaulted me or tried to make a move on me without me showing interest. I also lost my virginity to a guy who sexually assaulted me first. I just don’t trust ALL men. Can anyone else relate?