Trapped in my own body

Alex

I feel lost, trapped in my own body. It's been 3 years this year since I was sexually abused and assaulted by my boyfriend. I thought I was okay but a boy I like and want to go out with asked me out but I felt so sick and ran out of the room. I have suffered panic attacks everytime a unknown male gets anywhere near me. It's hard to leave the house never mind go it school. I'm trapped idk what to do.