About 4 years ago I was the most skinny I had ever been. Keep in mind, I’m a chunky girl.. so 150 is pretty skinny to me. I am 5’7”, with a fluctuating thyroid so I am used to my weight fluctuating somewhere in the 170’s to 180’s. I wasn’t “fit” for good reason. I wasn’t eating for days at a time and working out very hard. But the weight was just falling off. I was happy with myself. I finally felt good about myself. I met my husband during this time and I didn’t feel insecure for the first time in a relationship.

This was me during that time.

Since then I have gone through the loss of my parent and the loss of my first baby.. my weight is just out of control. I hate going to the gym because I feel extremely ugly. I walk my dog twice a day and try to eat healthy but it is just not working. I find myself really wanting to go back to my old ways to feel pretty again... I’ve never liked my face so my body was the one think I finally liked. Any advice for someone struggling with their appearance? This is my body now. I’m at 219 and really struggling to get the motivation.. but my husband says I don’t need to loose weight to improve my self confidence.. I don’t really know what to do about myself.